My Demented Life?

Well, my name is Madeline. I go by Maddie. My closest friends call me Mads or Julia. I'm adopted.. which is why my name is Julia. Madeline is on my birth cirtificate but my foster parents named me Julia. I hate that name despretely. I was born on Aprill 22, 1991. Which makes me 18 and a Taraus. Airgo; The bull. My life.. I sometimes hate it. I mean, my mom is a whore. I see my real mom like a lunar ecplise... So not too often. The foster mom.. she dresses like a hooker. She's married but cheats. That's overrated and uncalled for. You don't love someone, I understand that.. then why stay with them and hurt them? It's pathetic. Get a devorice, you cunt. I simply hate her. I do mostly everything around this house and she bitches at me for doing nothing. She's the one who shoots up herion and fucks everything she see's. My dad on the other end.. He's pretty cool, I guess. He hits me when I do something wrong or back-talk. And I understand that.. I guess. Cause I guess it's disapline. Oh well. -Shrugs shoulders- There's only seven people I truly care about in this world. Baylee- My niece. She was a myrical. I love her more than anything. I'm the one who really took care of her while her mother was in jail. (My sister Jennifer) And she's so adorable. I love spending time with her but it does get tiring.. and I can handle that. I cherish everytime I'm with her. You see, she's a myrical because she wasn't really supposed to be born. I guess you call her a suprise more than a mistake. I was a mistake. I was told so too. Anyways.. she wasnt suppose to be born because my sister at that time so a little overweight where her weight couldn't hold a baby. Well, she got threw it and I watched her for 7 months. I loved and enjoyed every moment of it. Jennifer- My sister. She's the one that's always been there for me. Through thick and thin. She helped me stop cutting for a bit, and she also made me see enjoy life alot more. Joshua Shaw- He's my boyfriend. He's someone I've never met.. -And I know people may not approve of that or say shit.. but SHUT THE FUCK UP. Love to me.. is about taking RISKS. And yeah, im taking a big one.. but I have faith unlike some of the assholes who tell me that Im doing wrong to my heart.- He means alot too me. He's someone who kept me intrested from the first day that I ever talked to him. He's sweet unlike anyone else I've ever met. He know's how to calm me down when I'm pissed off and or sad. He knows how to make me feel better when I'm sick. He always makes me smile and blush and I can talk to him about anything. He's someone I never want to loose. He's just... Josh. And I love him. My two nephews- They mean the world to me. Yeah, they get aggrivating but I can tell them my secrets also. And they keep them is suprising. Becca- She's my bestfriend. To be bluntly honest (I hear Josh say 'Bluntly' alot.. so I tend to use it...) I used to date her. Yeah, we're made for eachother.. just not romantically. We're never apart. She's been my bestfriend for 12 years now. We fight alot but we get over it in two minutes. We laugh at the things we argue about. It's fun to have someone so different from you, but yet so alike. Then there's my dog.. - Haha. His name is Tyson. He got his name frome the wrestler "Mike Tyson" because he bit my uncle's ear. Anyways.. I care about him.. because come on, who doesnt love their dog? No.. but I love talking to him.. (yes, i weird) but he's a good listener. And he even makes jesters to things I say.. so thats pretty sweet. He's the one who cuddles with me when I'm scared or sad. And I love it.. Umm.. I graduated from highschool and turned down Priceton. Why? Well, I do stupid shit.. But I guess I'm just taking a year off of school and might go back next year. I want to be a Photographer, RN, or a Lawyer. I need time to think. I also play acoustic guitar and the base drums. I write songs and poems. "Poems are songs" -Josh. Yeah.. I have another sister.. her name is Lucy. She died last year at the age of 14. In June. I guess you can say it's okay. She ment alot too me and still does. She overdosed and I felt like it was my fault because they we're my pills. *Sigh* You born, you live, you die. It's life. But yeah.. that's my life.