Im a loser, I know.

It seems like everything is falling into place... weird for this to happen. Rebecca has changed. I have changed. Shit, even my mom changed.. Change. It makes me wonder. Have the people who changed actually figured out they needed to? 'Cause personally I have. I figured out I was too selfish. (As I think.) I feel like I didn't really care about the world. I complainded too much. :/ But I've changed. I'm more into helping people. And, I'm usually with my family. Friends can fuck off for now. Well, certain ones. I don't do any drugs. Completely clean. I don't dare to touch another needle, pill, anything again. Yes I do weed. Sometimes. I drink. Sometimes. Not too much. I'm focusing on school. Helping people. I want to be a physcitrist. And so far.. alot of people are coming to me for thier problems. I kind of like it. I've been trying to get Rebecca and her ex Chis back together. So far.. its going well.. BUT! She won't admit that she likes him. Which is driving me crazy. She admits it to me but tells him a totally different story. Now it's kind of pissing me off. But I'm good at this stuff and she's gonna tell him tomorrow. :]
Anyways, friends come and go right? Ever think some come back? Hah. I do. A couple of old friends are back in my life. Lets see.. We have my ex, Will. Which... I don't know where it's going but we've been talking alot. And my mind always wonders to thoughts of him. Is that bad? Hmm.. Im talking to nothing. Just writing. That doesn't make sense. Nice going maddie. But umm.. yeah. He's cool to talk to . (: I enjoy his presence. I'm actually moving out to Cali soon and I cannot wait to hang with him. My friend Tammy is actually back into my life because she's going to COD. (College of Dupage.) I've been hanging out with her alot lately. She's supposed to be coming over today. Woot.
Alright, I wanna rant about something right now... Cell phone chargers. WHY DO THEY ALWAYS FUCKIN BREAK?! Holy Ba'Jesus! I hate them. Mine is like completely dismembered. -_- but.. that's alright.. because I got a new one. :P haha. But I had to say something about it. lol.
Yeah. So.. I want this tatoo.. and it's a heart. But i can't tell you why because it's lame. <3
Haha. Byes.